tonight has been intense.(there

tonight has been intense.

(there has misuse of language in the grocery store, almost running people who think they are as over, boardgames, tea mixed with wine, and somesortofnonsense invovling the internet, melissa visiting, and new friends, and eggs, smoked gouda, and sitting in the grassoutside the zoo house, emily miller yelling, me yelling, rum and coke, wishes for things that used to be a feeling right below my lungs of something off, then cops!, panic, picking burrs off non-snag pants, brief c-haus, new friends who already know who i am?,  and dancing. SO MUCH DANCING, walking home singing the same song over and over again. key).

now, melissa is sleeping in my bed, and tomorrow at six am (so you know, in two hours) we pick up zoe, and there will never oldness. that, my friends, is scary: the idea of your in a part of your life that isn't over, is still vaguely new, is now.